“It’s completely terrifying but it’s so so exciting”
It’s been on my mind all day… This line from the song “An Awful Lot Of Running” by Chameleon Circuit. It’s originally related to how being the Doctor’s companion, is dangerous, yet so compelling it draws you in. And I think it’s just like anything else in life.
Everything is scary, especially if you’ve just been let out of your little bubble of safety. Can I do this? Is this okay? What’s right and isn’t? So many questions filling your head, so many new things to experience, but yet, there’s so much you don’t know. Every day you learn something new, and it just scares you, when you realise you are actually only just one mediocre teen in a small country, out of slightly more than 7 billion people.
But yet, it just draws you in. The uncertainty of the future, the knowledge you don’t know, the customs you have yet to learn about, and at first you do think it’s scary, but then… You realise… It’s beautiful. The big outside world, there’s so much to learn, to see, and knowledge is limitless, yet, you can’t possibly know and understand everything. And when you do learn something new or fascinating, it makes you happy, because, it adds on your knowledge of the world, even though you’re just some person who’s probably not going to make a difference in the world by lazing around all day, there’s always something more you can learn each day.
And I think, uncertainty is beautiful.